|Bellagio all lit up, like my friends and I would be later.|
My friends and I spent an amazing weekend gambling, eating, seeing Britney Spears and David Copperfield, and even taking a burlesque dance class. It was incredible.
The biggest triumph of all was that I kept my OCD in check.
For some with OCD, myself included, dealing with money can be a huge trigger of symptoms. This is because money can be counted and quantified.... it can therefore lead to compulsions to recount and recheck. It's easy to obsess over whether you have the "right" amount. Doubt can creep in.
Money is also something that you can worry about stealing. With OCD, you often worry about doing the wrong thing, the bad thing. I worry about getting money I don't deserve. In the past with slot machines, I have actually worried that they paid me too much (ha!).
Las Vegas can be a huge trigger of symptoms for this reason. There is so much cash changing hands. Last time I was there, my OCD was really bad and I would worry that I hadn't tipped correctly or that somehow I had cash I didn't deserve.
This time, the thoughts were definitely still there (for example at one point I put money down on the counter and then minutes later wondered if it was really mine). However, I was able to move past them more effectively. I was able to tell myself, "It's just OCD, relax and move on". And it worked!
I may not have won any money (bummer), but this trip was a definite win on the OCD front.