|My job spreadsheet.|
For someone who has anxiety, the waiting game was murder. I created a job spreadsheet to keep track of my progress, and looking at it now is pretty interesting. Let's consider the numbers:
21 - Jobs applied to between August 17 and August 30.
13 - Jobs that just ignored me.
5 - Flat out rejection emails.
2 - Jobs with false hope. One of the jobs they gave me a phone interview and then called me in for an interview. Before we could schedule it, they filled the position. The other job they told me to wait for a telephone interview "sometime next week" (already putting me on edge for days) and then I found out from the recruiter they had made an error and were already at the offer stage with someone else and wouldn't be calling.
1 - Job success.
My advice to anyone with anxiety looking for a job is to remember that it's a numbers game. People would tell me that, and it's 100% true. You can't take rejections personally and you have to stay tough and keep putting yourself out there. It's easy to start obsessing over waiting to hear back, but it's a frivolous exercise. Instead of freaking out over applications that are pending, focus your energy on putting out more applications.
For the one job offer that I received, I went through a four step process: phone interview, writing sample, in person interview, and finally a project. That being said, this company was very quick to get back to me at every stage. They are a recruiting firm, so they have a real understanding of the job search process and are compassionate toward candidates. I even told them that I had OCD during my interview and they were super accepting about it. I love that I was able to be myself in the interview. It seems like I have found an extremely nurturing environment to grow my career.
So now, onto new anxieties... anxieties such as: How do I know if I'll be any good? How can I be sure I'll like it? Are my coworkers going to like me? Is my boss going to like me? How long will it take me to "get it"?
Better to focus on the excitement and positive possibilities than drown in the negative ones. Like most things, it's important to remember that only time will tell.