I'm the best at assuming the worst.
Right now, I'm dealing with a lot of uncertainty. I was waiting on job news that I originally hoped to learn by the end of May... then the end of June... and now have discovered I may not learn until August.
I want to be able to feel secure and plan, but I can't. At this point, things are out of my hands. Everything is out of my control... let the chips fall as they may.
I have to learn how to live with the unknown. The truth is that nothing is certain in this life. Even when you feel certain, you don't really know. Certainty is a beautiful illusion.
Yesterday, the anxiety of not knowing really got to me. I had a total freakout... crying, sobbing, wanting to give up. My triumph for today was getting up and going to work. Bad days happen during high stress times, but life keeps moving and you have to keep moving too.