Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Not So Sweet Dreams

Waking up can be a huge relief!
There are dreams and there are nightmares... and then there's that in-between anxiety dream

It's not exactly a nightmare in the traditional sense.   You aren't afraid for your life and nobody else is in danger... you're just put into some sort of every-day scenario that makes you extremely nervous and anxious.

For me, the two reoccurring themes for these dreams are school and stage.

I haven't taken a math class in almost ten years, and I still sometimes dream that I'm about to take some sort of math test and I don't know any of the answers.  Similarly, I have dreamed that I have a huge project due soon that I haven't even started.  School may be over, but the fear of failure that goes along with it remains.

I also used to act in high school, and sometimes I still have anxiety drama dreams. I'll envision that I have a huge role... I'm about to get onstage, and I haven't memorized any of my lines.

Recently I was blessed with both of these dreams in one night!  I was actually laying there in a half-awake state afterward trying to figure out how to get the project done before I came to enough to realize that it didn't actually exist.

Having these anxieties still haunt me is a tragedy, but waking up to realize that none of it is real?  That's always a great triumph in my book.


  1. Laura Beth, you are an incredibly intelligent young lady who should never feel anxiety about failing! I believe in you always, even when you are not in school x

    1. Thank you! I don't know how NOT to feel failure anxiety. Especially without you around to constantly reminds me it's going to be okay!

  2. I have those anxiety dreams sometimes...I love your openness and how you share your story on here.

    I wish you a wonderful start to the week :)

    1. Thank you! I hope that you have a great week too!