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I experience waves of feelings with such intensity that it overwhelms me. Unfortunately, a lot of these feelings are also negative - from anger to profound sadness.
Well, I saw the live action remake of Disney's Aladdin while in the middle of this transition period. The original Disney classic came out in 1992 when I was three and was very important to me as a little girl. With all the nostalgia about to ensue, the situation was ripe for a breakdown.
And the breakdown was real. So much crying. Overt sobs at one point. Don't get me wrong, the movie was beautiful, but I was also in a state. Nostalgia is hard, but it's even harder without medicine.
Please note the SPOILER ALERT here if somehow you are not familiar with the Aladdin story. (Also, please go and watch the classic cartoon immediately and then go see the remake!) Here, for your viewing pleasure, I've compiled a list of reasons that an emotionally unstable, anxious, unmedicated 29-year-old woman cried during a Disney movie remake.
Pre-Film
1. The Music in the Lion King Trailer (Hans Zimmer got me. Also just the idea of Mufasa.)
2. The Walt Disney World Commercial (Being at Disney was so wonderful. My family is the best family. What if I don't get to go again? When did I get so old? I don't want to get old. I don't want my parents to get old.)
The Film Begins
3. The start of "Friend Like Me" (Will Smith is trying his best but Robin Williams will never be matched. And now he's gone and that light in the world won't be repeated.)
4. Jasmine is perfect looking. (How can someone be that beautiful? I'm getting old. Why am I not that beautiful? All I wanted when I was little was to be Jasmine. Imagine what an honor to actually play that dream role.)
5. Aladdin pretends to fall off the balcony on to the magic carpet. ("A Whole New World" is about to be sung. I'm not ready.)
6. "A Whole New World" (I am not ready. Overtly sobbing through the whole thing and barely seeing any of the actual footage.)
7. Aladdin sets the genie free. (What a nice thing to do. Imagine what it would it feel like to be free for the first time.)
8. Aladdin and Jasmine get married. (They're in love and it's a wedding and it's beautiful.)
I realized stepping away from it that most of these are ridiculous tear triggers that my anxiety and emotions just took off with (Obviously not Mufasa. Always cry for Mufasa). I hope that this is a temporary issue and that things will balance out.
For now, I am lucky that I have a family of saints who are able to find humor in the situation and take it in stride. Sitting between my husband and my mom in that movie theatre, I had support on both sides and hands to hold - and they only laughed at me a little. Sometimes, when the emotions get too intense, that's the triumph: we just have to laugh.
